Merde, merde, merde. I'm up to 123.4. And I have no idea how that happened. Fuck!!!

Thanks to this, I'm not eating until I get below 121.6. I swear to God. And if I pass out at my horseback riding lesson tomorrow because of it, I DON'T CARE! I need to get rid of all those evil calories... Gah....

And now my boyfriend is ignoring me on AIM... And I haven't even started my homework, and it's already 7:45pm. Gah. He probably thinks I'm too fat to talk to.

I got the guy I wanted. =) Muahahaha! Actually I wasn't sure I wanted him. But now I'm very sure that I want him. He's so perfect.... I'm not going to mention his name, since someone could use that to track me down on this blog, but he knows who he is and that I love him more than anything.

And I want to say thank you to my best friend, for being there and just being so nice about how difficult I was last week. I'm better now. I won't bite your head off like that again, I promise. =)


Oh and Jeremy Camp is mine now. Haha... He's so cute. And so amazingly faithful. It's beautiful. Hear My Voice by Jeremy Camp... Giving You All Control... Take My Life... Ahh, Heaven.

And now it's Falling Over by Disciple. And before that I had Apocalyptica, I Am Ghost, and DIGIMON MUSIC!!!! Digimon dominates all. =)

I'm back up to 121.8 today. =( And I probably will be at least that tomorrow, since I accidentally binged on dried fruit today (bananas and mangoes). =/ But tomorrow, I swear I'm only going to eat apples. I'm dead serious. And I don't think we have enough apples for me to go above 500 calories. =)

Sadly, I think they might force me to eat tomorrow. Which will royally suck if they do.

So I'm back on AIM.... =/ I know, I haven't reached 118 yet. But I will! I swear! I just think I'll get more motivation on AIM now... If I stop losing weight or not lose weight as fast, then I'll get off AIM. Honestly. =)

120.6!!! 2.1 lbs until I reach my goal! Sadly, I binged today... But it was healthy low-cal food, so it can't be too bad, right? Plus it was really cold so I probably burned more calories.

And Giving You All Control by Jeremy Camp is amazing... It's so beautiful... I think I'm in love with him. =)