This is just a introduction... Hopefully this blog doesn't fall into the wrong hands (like my parents'... the horror!)...

So basically, I really want to lose weight. And not eating has turned out to be a good way of not cutting (I've been dealing with that on and off for about 2.5 years). =) I've lost about 7 lbs in the past week... So now I'm at 123.2. I've been about 130 for the past year or two. Oh God... that feels so weird admitting it to a bunch of people that I'll never know... And I'm 5'3", so that's a healthy weight for me. =)

My current short-term goal is 118. Heh... I have a BMI chart saved on my desktop as "anime" so that my parents won't look at it... here it is... It's organized as "weight-BMI, healthy/not healthy according to government"...

118.5-21, healthy

113.0-20, healthy

107.5-19, healthy

101.5-18, perfect

96.0-17, perfect

90.5-16, perfect

84.5-15, perfect

79.0-14, perfect

73.5-13, perfect

68.0-12, perfect


Yes, I replaced "underweight" with "perfect". Thin = perfection. =) I'm not sure how far down I can go though... My aunt got to 70 before she died. But I'm younger and stronger, so maybe I'll last longer. She was beautiful before she died. So thinspirational...


So my goal is to not eat more than one meal a day. And when I do eat, SMALL AMOUNTS. And nothing unnecessary. Necessary being enough to convince my mom that I'm not worried about my weight. =) Problem is... if I do start losing weight, and my mom notices, I don't know what I should say. But I'll figure that out later.


What's been really inspirational for me is reading blogs like this... So maybe I can add some more thinspiration to what's already out there!



I've decided I won't get on AIM at all until I reach 118. And no sweets, which are my biggest weakness. And each time I go down a BMI point, I'll let myself give in to my cravings a little bit for a day. But then I'll go back to restricting. Yes, I did get this idea from another blog. I would like to thank the owner of that blog for that wonderful idea. =)


Anyway, I'll post my intake and stuff on here... Inspiration... Progress... All that fun stuff. Hopefully I can do this!